Mar. 12th 2009
What a year I’ve been having!. I haven’t dropped much personal information about my time out here in the Middle-East despite your requests. It wasn’t a matter of not wanting to share its just that it’s been an exceptionally challenging growth filled year and I’ve had to sort things out in my own mind before I got onto sharing. I’ve set out some big tasks for myself and it’s required some tremendous personal growth.
I’m feeling now that the big shifts are pretty much in place and done this time round (thank GOD!) and I’m feeling very clear and very focussed.
So here’s a brief run through the past 11 months.
- Took a contract in the Middle East to work as an Executive Coach and Trainer for leaders within the Oil and Gas Industry. I’ve been working with the Ministry of Oil and Gas as well as an Oil Company. Awesome just awesome
- Travel back and forth to Canada and Europe doing some leadership training and Success Intensive Events, but mostly I’m working on this contract.
- 4 months into my contract my family joins me – Awesome it’s so good to be with my boys again!!!
- 3 months of living hell with my family here with me, not working out at all, they go home end November – I’m on my own until the end of the contract in April.
- Watching them leave was absolutely the most agonizing pain I have ever experienced in my entire life – I couldn’t breathe.
- I survived (obviously) and decided to make the best of it
-Christmas came. It was hell without them. I prefer never to experience that again as long as I live. We had a beautiful celebration here, with gifts and friends, I cried.
- Ok make the best of it. So I have been and it’s been great. I began extensive inner work, and now back to taking care of myphysical health.
Oh yeah my health … I’ve had the absolute strangest ailments one could imagine, including a root canal that was done poorly (before I left Canada) and the broken piece of rootcanal instrument that was left in my mouth without the dentist telling me provided chronic pain and massive infections. Finally I had to pull the tooth – anybody want to buy a solid gold crown…cheap cheap ha ha. Then I had a cyst (minor problem quite common) turn into a chronic infection and spread over my stomach, a trip to the hospital in excruciating pain because of a swollen kidney – who knew? -what else – cold from hell for 6 days oh yeah and an infection in the cartlidge of my nose – strange but true. The swelling and the pain was excrutiating. There was more I’m just not big on remembering stuff that doesn’t serve me anymore.
-At this very moment I am healthy and well and sitting in my office typing this journal type entry to share. My personal growth as been enormous, like I said I have been preparing for some big work I am ecstatic and pleased. You see although this was one of the most painful years of my life it has been one of the best… let me tell you what’s coming up in my timeline.
But first I’ll say I was disappointed that I wouldn’t renew my contract. I had considered staying on even with my children in Canada, I gave my head a shake and well forget it I can’t even imagine I was considering it, but I was. I had never tended ever to leave my children. My children are a huge part of what I’m here to master in this lifetime. I realized a few years ago after my near death experience I knew then I came back for two reasons 1. my sons 2. my work, it was clear and undisputable. Yet here I was without my sons… they were literally half way accross the world. I can work anywhere and I was half way accross the world from my sons? that’s just stupid, so I decided to come home. I don’t usually do stupid for too long – I do however honour my commitments and I commited to staying one year – my word is law.
Anyhow back to my time line. It was early January that I made the decision to come home. At that point I really began focussing on my personal inner work as well as now I continue to focusing on developing my programs. I also started travelling,- I’m here and there’s lots to discover.
I have been to Dubai (a couple times) Egypt, Bangkok, and all over Oman!. I’m thinking about another trip at the end of the month – somewhere any suggestions? I’m heading back to Thailand at the end of April to explore the northern provinces – its amazing there. Then I head to Malta…and then Gozo for our absolutely amazing Success Intensive 10,11,12!!!
From there I’m back to Oman for a week to say my good byes, well at least good bye for nows…and then I’m homebound (I’ll be coming out to do more work in the Middle – East just shorter contracts). At this point I’m planning on June 9 2009 for my return to Canada…just in time for my youngest son’s birthday.
The summer I’m spending with my boys!!! a few trips away while they’re off school, some time at my cottage (which I haven’t visited yet, I bought it with my sister Lorraine and then left for Oman…I hear its great) and then into my work schedule again starting September in Malta!
It will be great to see my dog Meli and my cats, Stelllllla, Stripes (The Dude), and Diddy Dot.
Now about the Soul Sista’s.
In my life I’ve been blessed with many many friends, and today I have several people that would be there for me in an instant..I am so grateful you know who you are thank you I love you.
In the past I had a friend in high school who was there for me and she was amazing. To this day I think about her and wonder about how her life has been going. I tried looking her up, but not luck. I let it go. The last time was about 2 years ago.
Then after high school I met my “Bud” that’s what I use to call her. Our friendship was effortless, yin and yang, up and down where she left off I took over and vice versa, it was amazing. We understood each other, never had to expalin ourselves and we trusted each other without hesitation.
We drifted apart. It broke my heart, but I accepted that it was time. I believe that is part of life, we come in we help each other we go out. Same with couples, no need to fight or be angry about it, relationships end it happens look around. Be grateful for what you got, learn from them, suck it up and keep going.
Over the years I’ve thought about her countless times. I tried looking for her nothing, phonebook nothing, google nothing, all the place she worked, friends we knew…nothing. Truly I yearned to have a friend like her again, it was like there was an empty spot in my heart. I couldn’t find her. I told the powers that be when it’s time, if there’s a time I’m ready. Then I let go.
Last week, I had a cancellation at work, and I started messing around on facebook. Now please understand I’m not really into facebook but my husband and my sister and some close friends told me it would be a great way for us to share our family pictures and keep up todate. Considering I live 9 – 11 hours of most people I know and my closest family members are that far away I thought ok. I joined like maybe 5 weeks ago.
So the other day I went on face book to upload some pics and I swear to you I hear a voice that said “Find your friend” except it said her name. So I did and bam in 10 seconds later there was her beautiful smiling face right there in front of me. After 15 years there she was right there! I had looked everywhere and there she was.
I sent a gentle note telling her if she were interested I’d love to hear from here and my God she was interested!!!! We’ve been laughing and crying since, catching up and planning when we’ll see each other in June.
I found my other friend the one from highschool. She had been looking for me as well!!!! Who would have thought – not me. I’m blown away – what an honour I am so grateful for these two wonderful women back in my life – thank you.
Although my relationships with both of these women were a long time ago, and they are very differnt relationships, they were both so important to me and I feel like I still know them so well. Truly we are soul sista’s and have been given an opportunity to continue to learn and grow from each other. Life is amazing!
This year has been a roller coaster really truly both ends of spectrum, the pendulum has swung to both extremes, my children are happy at home and eager to see their mom (what you think about that – eager to see their mom pretty cool huh?) and One Spirit is moving with fantastic momentum we know have plans to open the One Spirit Institute for Feeling Better!
So that’s it for now. I would like to offer this, when life is hard and it will be hard …remember to keep breathing, that’s all you have to do, just keep breathing, everything else will come. Know that you will laugh again it is inevitable for every storm must end. When you can, at every opportunity laugh, laugh out loud and until your belly aches. All we have is this very moment, no future, no past only right now.
Wishing you a joyfilled now.
be well
jackey
p.s. thanks for reading!!!
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